Friday, December 5th- Sonnet

You were an avalanche in my set way

I never knew someone could mean so much

You always brought to me a means to pray

I now realize you were my biggest crutch.

You tore out my helpless, lost, lonely heart

I cried for you a thousand moon light nights

You would not come to my bedside in aid

I would scream your name through my endless tears.

You brought a limitless amount of pain

I had to remove myself from your trap

You left me, again, to bring yourself gains

I cut myself out of your deadly wrap

But you knew I could not stay away long

My love for you still runs wearily strong.

Thursday, December 4th- Unrequited Love

When you're fifteen and walk into a new school you have the goal of finding new friends and fitting in. After a month or so you have a pretty solid friend group and are introduced to a boy. You immediately recognize that he's sweet and attractive, but you are too timid to say anything. Being in high school means any first relationship will be a little awkward, but you rejoice when he finally asks for your number. At first it is innocent talking then you become best friends. A couple months pass and you realize your true feelings and you finally have the courage to admit you have a crush. The problem is he now has a girlfriend. You continue to talk as best friends until he realizes your feelings. He apologizes for not knowing and says he wishes he would have known sooner, but it wouldn't feel right to break up with his girlfriend now. You calmly agree and wish everything would have started differently. His friends tell you he feels awful about the situation and misses you as a friend, but knows his girlfriend would be jealous if he were to continue to talk to you.

A few months pass and he texts you saying "It's been a while". As the conversation continues he tells you that he broke up with his girlfriend a month earlier. You ask why and he tells you this: "The first time I saw you I tripped where I was walking and knew I had to be with you. I couldn't tell what your feelings were and didn't want to ask. I couldn't stay with my girlfriend because it would not have been fair for her." My heart filled with joy because I knew I finally had a chance. Until three weeks later when he asked another girl to be his girlfriend.

After a year of going back and forth with him and never making it official I finally realized that I would never be the girl he loved. I had fallen head over heels for a boy who saw me as nothing and finally I had the strength to walk away from this unrequited love.

Tuesday, December 2nd - Top Secret

On a cold, snowy winter day I wrap myself up in layers of blankets.
You turn on the shower as I begin to fall asleep.
I am startled out of my dreary state when I hear you talking.
"ISIS took the White House over. We have to act as quickly as possible. No reporters can know that the president has been killed. We have to find a way to drive them out before they do something devastating."
I sit in fear as you walk out of the bathroom.
You realize I overheard everything.
You rush to me and tell me, as I shake, that everything will be fine.
I cry and ask how long this has been happening.
You tell me that I've already heard enough and need to stay in the house today.
You squeeze me tight then rush out the door trying to think of ways to save the world.
I roll myself back up in the covers and pray for God to save our country.